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Love Symphony

Itthon vagy Balázskám Kedves vagy És jó, hogy itt vagy velünk Szeretsz minket? You are here, at home, Darling Balázs…

Support Symphony

Supporting myself with the right pace I was held, once upon a time in feminine, blue, oceanic waters of joy…

Omission Symphony

Rivers of sadness Shame A grimace engraved so deep That this mouth opens and my innocent face widens Into a…

It can be us

Love yourself for who you are, I love myself for who I am, I love you thoroughly for who you…

Manifestum

Patience of the Moon, I feel loved by her – and I love her. She is reasonable – not infinite,…

Love life

Feléd lépni felém lépni. "It does not have to be worse than this." – J The surrealism of life unfolds…

Attention

This is the golden rule This is the only currency That we have to pay in person And be prepared…

Family man

(Originally a Telegram message to E.) Opening towards pair-development and a liveable, organic, gradual family lifestyle is happening in me.

Fluid personae

I have a receptive persona, soft and gentle, feminine Waiting for invitations to come in And moving along accordingly And…

Sun-kissed boy

You may land on my shoulders, butterflies, sit all over my skin Time by time You pull me back into…

Compass

What have I learned in 44 years? Welcome people who are open and trustful to you. Welcome people who enable…

Szeretetre, szerencsére

Szeretetre és egészségre törekedjünk Ne egy helyzetre Ne egy formára, hanem egy érzetre, érzésre Ha más érzelmi minőség, testi emlék…

Survival

These were Adam's thoughts: You gonna get whatever you look for Attention placement 🔴 Whatever you focus on, grows Find…

Colourful

Slow burn, slowly pulsating jazz funk Sensitive and soft yet tough epidermis Nipples and the skin on the back quite…

Asztrid

Szerényebbé alászállok Fényesebbé alászállok Felületesebbé alászállok Szélesebbé alászállok • Arcodat a tenyerembe veszem Megcsókollak és egy picit megkeresem a nyelved…

Elasztikusság

Elasztikusság "Riding style" Milyen lehetőségekre van szükségem? Szivárványszínű, fényes Dél Keresztje Összekötve

Intimate

Rejected by whom, which part of ours, and also accepted by which nurturing part? Inner, warm cradle of love –…

Thrive / Bőség (2)

(A címlapkép Papp Norbert munkája, "Az ego sárkányának megszelídítése".) Kedves Olvasók! Milyen fontos a kapcsolat közöttünk! Nekem nagyon fontos. Hogy…

Thrive (1)

"Figyeljünk a sebeinkre És az élet örömére" Motherly abuse And motherly love And motherly self-care And an admiration for life…

Eklektikus mix (2)

Tisztázzunk valamit az elején! Semmit, soha nem kell prezentálni – nem kell, sőt nem lehetséges helyes választ adnom azokra a…

Mink mán csak így vájbolunk 😎

Nagyon fontos a vájb, vibe, összehangoltság, barátság Finoman egymásra érzünk, egymással élvezzük Az életet, munkát, közös tanulást; lágy és erős…

Personal diary (16051)

Gregorian calendar date Sun Jul 23 2023 11:54:00 GMT+0200 (Central European Summer Time) Stardate 12307.23 * A worluki drén időszámítás…

Joy Of Missing Out

This immense joy of missing out Turns everything into the opposite Lacking becomes riches Rest is easy and full Sacred,…

Együtt szeretek

Azt választom, hogy több vagyok, mint amit a szem lát. Azt választom, hogy a kapcsolatok, amikről azt gondoljuk valósak, tényleg…

Elbűvölő / Enchanting

Akkor élek igazán, ha látom a szíved mintázatát The only time I truly live is when I see your heart…

Rendben (2)

Magadat szeresd Isten is szeret Minden rendben Love thyself God loves you Alles in Ordnung Itthon vagy, Kedvesem Teljesen rendben…

Öreg, szabad hobbit

Finom és figyelmes leszek. Megfelelően táplálkozom, a testemre, lelkemre figyelek. Mindenkiére, ha lehet. Az eszemet rugalmasan és sokrétűen tartom. Szeretek.

My house

My resilience and responsibility are one The ability to contain the pain And move on With the moment and life…

Responsibility

In using my voice I have to take responsibility Over my life I have to speak up And highlight what…

Pain

Precious one, you are loved. For no particular reason. Unfolding at times of remembrance, completion, sometimes with an urge to…

Cauldrons

Relax Unload No need Refill Accept Be wild Be me Truly me And much more

A simple, stupid life

(Explicitly illustrated, for adults only / Explicit illusztrációval, csak felnőttek számára) This is such an exceedingly simple life Of warm,…

Superfine

- not a very good poem with a very good message - It is superfine Everything goes to shit This…

Vad szeánsz / Wild séance

- mostly in Hungarian - Világi, átvitt orgazmusban Most pihenni Semerre se menni Semmilyen veszélyre, életre nem figyelni Itthon lenni,…

Innocence lost

Innocence is lost In essence: chaos An unwinnable game of enmity Within ourselves And others A wide stretch Of love…

Softness

Softness In a tree trunk In hunger for a pizza In eating the pizza In a step In drinking a…

Delicious dark

I would like to be real all the time, to come across real, and really go out. I would like…

Love

To be real is a thing, and I would like to be fucking real all the time. If I could.

Effortless

The Judge cannot live in the Heart. Go where the Judge cannot live. A mellow place.

Beauty of a father

Beauty is what beauty does. Father writing a poem to his son. The son answering. A variation: Beauty is what…

Death (2)

The trigger comes, no understanding, no acceptance or love towards me. (Through a man this time.) The message might be…

Be humble my friend

Be humble my friend. Becoming small while widening. This can be an extremely gentle place, let go.

Partnership collage

Egy leszbikus hangulatú (pontatlan így) nővel szeretnék együtt lenni. Aki azért engem szeret, meglátja bennem a lágyat is és a…

Post covid, post partum

There is also light shining through the wound In my belly and in me Gates are opening Yet everything is…

Meditation, now

My current natural high aside, every inch of the last weeks point in the same direction, that the only approach…

Szolgálat / Service

Szolgálat Kinek mennyit adhatok magamból, erőből, szépségből, együttlétből, figyelemből? Enyhít-e, hűsít-e az érintésem? Szívem tisztítótüze világít-e? Tüzem melegít-e? Egész vagyok,…

Options

Keeping a level head in all the pain. Being level with the world and others and having all options available.

The pure oasis of touch

The pure joy of a touch. The joy of unhindered, uncontrolled, benevolent touches. The touch of loving, touch of cool…

A year of burning

I can be a child without my mother, and I may be an adult without my partner. I no longer…

2023-ban

"Csináld meg!" Radikálisan fel kell ébrednem! Soha életemben nem akarok többet hazudni vagy valamit elrejteni, elfelejteni, elrejtőzni. Igazat mondok. Az…

Butt plug

I am so much interested in your mind and love, Your refreshing, soothing presence, And also whether you like to…

Rule of threes

The Loop revisited, Everything is a triangle Due to division and fear Me relating To a healthy counterpart, Also to…

A free human

All my alter egos were revealed Sitting here beside me Breathing openly, breathing deeply No smile, smiling shy, or widely…

INFP

INFP ❤ INFP or INFJ + Communication + Staying power is sort of my dream work and combination. To truly…

Loop and Construct

The Big Loop: Being in a relationship in a way that it is not fulfilling in one way or another,…

Very well loved

I'd like to be very well loved Also very well love With a purple heart That feels like our centre…

Songbirds

A poem about family About feathers and pain And most of all endurance Loyalty And devoted love This is a…

For me

Because a "for what" is usually a "for whom". Instead of wanting someone to want for you what you want…

Relationship

So I'd like to live with someone not for more life, but to feel biologically and psychologically content and be…

Songbird, a difficult birth

A quest for glory: After a horrendously difficult yet successful birth! Many intrusive impressions! That is the most difficult balance…

We are loved

We are loved, You mean? So blessed you are, You are loved by many women, So do not make a…

Songbird

❤️ I am a happy songbird, little brown and grey songbird, one of many, singing your soul song. I will…

I wonder!

It is not about either staying frozen or dying It is about either dying frozen or living It is about…

Kuplung / Clutch

Kuplung Olyan, mintha kuplungot nyomnék folyamatosan, pörög a motor, nagy sebességgel, gördül az élet, buckás úton, és a kettőnek össze…

Mondatok / Sentences

"Celebrate Wild Potency, your own sacred power and relationship with your sexual energy." Az életerővel nem lehet lacafacázni, pláne balfaszkodni.

Beltane accounts

An inaccurate account of heart- and meaningful experiences around the early summer of 2022. These were written on and right…

Beauty

I am not an eye candy, I am a soul candy — Perhaps, And sometimes I may be an eye…

Igaz áramlás / True flow

Uram istenem, Kérlek add meg nekem, Hogy ez az ember Készen álljon az igaz áramlásra. My God, Please grant it…

Synonyms

Complete beginner Complete rest Complete godhead Gabriel's shadow Kingfisher Eternal Eagle Ground Mammoth Earthly embrace Death Life Eternal struggle Freedom…

Motherly haikus / Anyai haikuk

Fosztóképző -talan -telen • Healing is more important than health Healing is love Health is a treasure • Mestergyógyító Édesanyámnak…

Wild potency 

(Explicitly illustrated, for adults only / Explicit illusztrációkkal, csak felnőttek számára) ❤️ Meg nem kezdett utazás Prospektus, enyhén gyűrött fedlappal,…

Umbilicals / Köldöki versikék

(Explicitly illustrated / Explicit illusztrációkkal) Pursuing Non-doing Maintains connection, Long lost severances Unsevered • To love is To do good,…

Sanity Circle

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn Is just to love and be loved in return" This is a communal practice…

Subtle flowers

We are here for each other Dome of nourishment A sweet child I am What is real Does not die…

Jézus Szíve / Heart of Jesus

Jézus tanítása Krisztus jelenléte Mély hála Szív Töviskoszorú Finom Új élet The teaching of Jesus The presence of Christ Deep…

True hug

Pain, headache. Tightness, thorns. 🡆 "I feel abandoned." This is a true poem. "True hug." This is a poem. This…

Fertile, fragile

Rich and dark dirt Black skeletal hands reaching up from it Pristine shit Frail blossoms Stems and petals in pale…

Kurvaság / Malaise

Kurvaság Holdtölte, majd hirtelen holdfogyatkozás Elmosódott, rószaszín-rózsás-vörös kijárat Szív alakú Csonkolt has Elhagyott otthon Majd újra otthont találni idegenben Nagyobb…

Whatever it takes

We truly wish the best for our relatives For our loved ones And for ourselves We wish to embrace them…

Remember

Remember - every part of the dream is an aspect of you ❤️❤️❤️ (Je says) Peace is made of peace…

Dícsérő szavak / Eulogy

Sziasztok! Édesanyám tegnap meghalt. Nekem ez jutott eszembe tegnap: 4 hours after passing My Mother and Father are standing behind…

4 hours after passing

My Mother and Father are standing behind me My Father to the right, his left palm on my shoulder My…

Love haikus

Supportive work ethics I don't know the exact nature of your experience But I love you truly That is what…

Exchanges

Yes, thank you. I sense that this time teaches us to love more. With less questions, right attention, I mean…

Life

This myriad-flow of life On its fat, wide course Multiple fingers of a hand Multiple veins in a wide heart…

Cordless

I was born cordless into this world, and This is why I lack every missed relationship Every missed lovemaking Every…

Misplaced, nearly

Hotter than guilt More than just sorrow A big unsafety Burning from the inside Adrenaline, fear Uncertainty, only vanishing is…

Big blue love

Blue and canary yellow Women in skirts to their knees Men in tight suits, always in time

Voluptuous kindness

There is nothing more stunning or catching Than an honest, gentle smile Beautifully lighting up a voice, eyes or visage…

Overwhelming love

Every given day I try to Remember Encouragement Appreciate Everything I have The sun and moon above Water to drink…

Trap!

Spiritual-hippie-Rousseau trap Tech trap The trap of being held by anything new Anything big we encounter Either by the vivid…

Liebe

Ich bin mit mir noch tief verliebt Fasciniert Mit euch Injoy Inscape Liebe sein Rich solitude Reiche Einsamkeit Schönheit Ruhe…

Kezdeti szeretet / Initial love

Kezdeti szeretet Mindegy, hogy mekkora a tér, minden rendben Mindegy, hogy mit tettél, minden rendben Jelenlét, türelem, tér Eredendő szeretet…

Force majeure

Force majeure A snail out of its house Soft hair and soft core That which takes away is no father…

A clean slate

I am writing this note into a separate notebook, onto a clean slate, and yet I feel connected with the…

Tropical waters

I need to breathe I ever so need to breathe And to bloom and to feel To be in love…

Susceptible

Beautiful, perfect eyes Wide jaw, strong teeth A calming gaze, a softer stride If you are like that You gonna…

Ejaculation

A withheld ejaculation Instead of an ejaculation naturellement An ejaculation without stroking Just a simple touch At the tip With…

Chess table

For four players A family of four The four winds The four cardinal directions A chess table for more For…

Inner protest

In many situations I protest Respect and protest But respect the wrong thing Do not respect my position Rather the…

Who am I

It seems not to fit Any better Than before When I was so comfortable in my skin I was born…

Closing my eyes

Many times it is uplit When I close my eyelids I close them tight And pull the blanket tight in…

Black is a warm colour

I do not need no substance The world has substance enough The borderless psyche has content plenty enough And the…

Waves II.

Layer two A little deeper A little stranger Dick, dick, dick Jummy, jummy dick Cock, cock, cock Jummy cock Pussy,…

Waves I.

Brother, brother, brother I love you brother Father, father I love you father Even though I fear you as well…

Prelude

Made of bone and meat My body pains and aches And feels safe My heart races My lips smile I…

Black Sanctum

The Inner Codex Black Codex The Black Bible Inner Sanctum Black Manifesto The Dark Codex The Inner Light What should…

Unacceptable

It is acceptable If you die for it Stop Stop doing it Very easy Just die for it Be fully…

Come as you are

10 PRINT "You are not a broken car" 20 PRINT "Come as you are" 30 PRINT "This poem is no…

For O and A

What makes you think that I am an outsider What makes me think that you think that I am an…

Boat

Small boat, white sails Big wind, grey waves And yet I sail With conviction To the other shore

Fear Process

(Personal process) Shock, Threat —> Becoming small, Loosing security —> Finding myself in a power struggle (Mother vs Father, me…

Allow, allow

Awareness, awareness Allow, allow There is no war in this world There is only internal war Awareness, awareness Allow, allow…

Pillantások / Glimpses

Is it any good? It is what it is. Alapvetően Szeretlek Annyira, hogy összeráz Monism ⨀ There is one simple…

Father

I was fully blown into my face Fully born into my face With the help of my father I love…

Doubt

Drop the doubt Rewind Drop the doubt Again Drop the doubt

This movement of now

Softly choosing • through movement • the truth of this present moment. Travelling • always in movement. Safely arriving •…

Privacy

Privacy is sacred in my eyes Mine was overstepped, when I was young And I overstepped others’, forever gone Please…

Salute

Love, love In, in, in Nothing says I love you more than “Do not put yourself under any pressure” Just…

30 lines

Life brings us peace Life brings me possibilities Always and always And safety And companions Celestial support Visible and invisible…

New moon

The pale, bright, white face Of a new moon A love letter to clarity A new life Sanctity A sickle…

Work

Then just go, work! Please. You can do it. Does it matter? Done.

Dark

A beautiful poem Full of light Akin to the new moon

Light

A star A night light A lampion on a boat in the reed A candle in a sermon A good…

Life is belonging

Life is belonging Fully living is belonging fully To a piece, any piece In peace really One embrace at a…

Really equal

Part of the game Shit and gold Just smile Ass on the chair Feet on the ground

Death (1)

On the verge of death Shocked and frozen Dead By the dozen Living again Equanimous, unprotected

Joy

It must be joyous Deep love, deep peace überall Even though I cannot see it, sense it Not at all…

Come to me (1)

Come to me Whenever you come to me Without looking for anything in return Then all is ripe, free, alive…

I am free

I am free Independent Enough I am connected Full and Happy I am a good man Deeply And I need…

Jó ember / Good man

Jó ember vagyok Mélységemben Ennél többet nem tehetek I am a good man Deeply I cannot do anything more J:…

Collage (2)

I am still being baked, cooked, expression yet to arrive. Energy system vacuum cleaned and flushed through, so need some…

Presence (1)

Presence is a tricky thing, Subtle, sensitive, unknown. How does it happen? I don’t know. Maybe a feather in the…

Accepted

I was accepted in her work And I could do mine In clear presence Involvement Fulfillment and joy and love…

Answers

No to things that are wrong, Not the ones where I belong — Say yes to those in your favor,…

How?

How, how to be a human In contact, part of a family, in love All the time? By being me…

Trust

All you must do is trust In trust, everything has a chance to settle In trust, there is apt time…

A will to live

Life force with a will to live Kills Moves mountains Sets you free Lets you be

Surpassing my skin

I’d like to shed my skin I’d like to be out there I’d like to be everywhere I understand those…

Surrender

What will you do when force does not work any more? Will you adjust to love? No, you won’t. You…

To bear

What will you do when force does not work any more? Will you adjust to love? Only as a last…

Courage

A process alone Is a process in gold A process in the company Of millennia, of great cohorts All in…

Me as my knife (2)

The perfection of God is in me I am an ultimate object I have clean lines I am a symbol…

Me as my knife (1)

I am black and brown, Made of steel, brass, plastic. I am very sturdy, safe, I am balanced, thick, heavy,…

Voice

I would like to reside in my voice Inhabit my voice Give life to my voice Sound my voice Show…

Focus (….) wider

||: When focusing on a person, on a problem, on pain, on despair, on helplessness, please focus wider. Know what…

Heart

This is one decision away One stop away Simple, complete rest Right here, where I am And where I go…

One-on-one 101

“Just be gentle!” Every once in a while we loose some of our presence. Then we are only partially here.

At the crossroads

Dancing at the crossroads, At the no place Where past and future meet, This is the moment when Stillness moves…

Dance

Peace in every breath The wide and wild sky, air, in every inspiration Being held by the Ever-living Lady And…

Birds of the heart

One bird: The bird from the innermost chamber of my heart lifts up and sits on your shoulder. More birds:…

Stones / Kövek

Stones Grey and white stones on the ground, And a green one: Finding a way to love you Kövek Szürke…

Peace

Lay down the arms Find a means for peace Grope for peace Be peace Head to toe I love you

Invocation

Snow melting down my face Going in Being in Meeting my heart Clarity in everything Each move Each vein In…

Become wide

Become wide Be calm and wide Breathe Harmonize the sides Do silk reeling Alternate nostril breathing Cold showers Exercise

This is the experience

This is the experience Don’t look further, there is not more than this Just stay tender, all innocent, still And…

Holnap

Néhány nap múltán a hasam egy masszőrlány szerető figyelmében lágyul majd el. Azt követően néhány nappal újra kinyílik a szívem.

Sima ima / A simple prayer

Oṃ amideva hrīḥ Om praise to the infinite god Om praise to the infinite self Om dícsértessék a végtelen isten…

Unibody

The lake is utterly here And I simply sit on the shore And I simply sit on the shore When…

Follow-up

I am inside and outside, Weaving, infusing, transforming, I just hope my body can keep up peacefully. How many times…

Last evening

Last evening was a rare one, with grey to purple to pink to blue on the sky, no ripples on…

Egymásba / The seed of life

Egymásba Szépséges, kitartó magot vetettünk el egymásba. Vetett belénk az élet. Önmagába. Magam adom – magom adom. A mag nem…

Jim Kacian: 1 haiku

Jim Kacian: 1 haiku clouds seen through clouds seen through Fordításom: felhőkön átsejlő felhőkön át tisztán látni

Dedication

This work is dedicated to the people who — knowingly or unknowingly — help it to become what it is.

Welcome

Dear Friend! This weblog is a creative outlet for me and a place to gather my writing, a story, a…