Inner protest

In many situations I protest
Respect and protest
But respect the wrong thing
Do not respect my position
Rather the opposition
And I skew and drain and feel its pain
And I let myself stand there and survive
By not throwing rocks into
Muddy waters of others
In case a monster would turn up
And shriek and repel and charge
And I really wanna survive

A helpless child
A helpless monster in the dark
A helpless mirror
A helpless mind

A suffering body
A nervous life